Friday, January 23, 2009

Stream Of Conciousness Rambling, Up Way Too Late

Stream Of Conciousness Rambling, Up-Way-Too-Late (posted early in the wee hours today)

I worked a little late tonight and when I was done I went out to the computer store, still trying to convince myself I need/want a netbook, or maybe that I *don't* need one, but decided it wasn't the right time yet, with prices still yet to fall on solid state memory, but I might buy one before the year is out, so anyway, just walked around and lusted after the gadgets I want and don't need, like everything else, really, then I went and bought gas - that's petrol to you Brits - in the bitter below zero cold at the neighborhood BP, and I must say, it's on nights like this that I wish most places still had full-service, but no such luck, and then I just drove around for a few minutes, cause there's no place better in the world to talk to your own self than in the car, after dark, and if you won't listen to yourself, then who will, so as I said, I was driving around, trying to keep the lake of depression from crystalizing, and yes, TH, I know that in the song it was 'latent depression,' so you've reminded me, but I kind of think that 'lake' works, too, even if it *isn't* quite the coldest night of the year, and talked to myself as therapy, and I have to admit that it wasn't entirely successful, but I have to suppose the patient will live, and when I got home it was after 10 pm, and realized that I hadn't eaten supper, but it was way too late to have a proper meal for me, since I end up with indigestion if I eat late at night - I used to be able to eat pretty much anything right up to bedtime and sleep just fine, but not anymore, yes, the indignities of aging - but I was hungry, so I had a wee bit of this and that, anyway, but then I realized that having been so sick this past week and not being able to sleep right has set my internal night clock all out of whack, and I ended up watching a litte TV and then YouTubing for a bit, decided to post a Friday Night Videos, something I haven't done since forever - I kind of miss all that - and even if they were mostly songs I've posted before, I figured it's my blog, and my FNV, and I'll post what I want, and you know, I'd love you to love them, too, but if you don't, share yer own, I say, and I'll watch *yours*, and anyway, I'm only going to post stuff that connects with me on some level, makes me laugh or cry or think or feel, and I won't explain or apologize for that, nor should I, nor should anyone else, but anyway, it's after 2 AM, I'm really tired and I'm having a hard time thinking of anything profound, so I'll just describe the tiny universe of my immediate surroundings: lying on the futon with my new(er) laptop resting on my thighs, conscious of the heat of the laptop on my leg, and the hum of one of my daughters' computers, and the tinnitus in my left ear, and the blurriness in my left eye, and the constant pain in my left foot, and the annoying - if relatively small - layer of winter fat that has settled in around my waist, and the five of six lit light bulbs in the chandelier (I've been too lazy to change the sixth burned out one), and the coffee table to my right are a couple of stacks of books, both adult and children (no, not *that* kind of adult book), and a copy of the 10th Anniversary Collector's edition of the BBC mini-series, 'Pride and Prejudice,' my work ID badge, and empty Cherry Yogurt container, my turned-off cell phone, two remote controls, one for the TV and the other for the Video Cassette DVD and CD player/recorder, though I've never figured out how to get analog data transferred over to DVD, but the instruction manual informs me that it's easy and fun, I mean, what kind of sadistic creature is Santa Claus to try to make even video transfer and editing 'fun,' and several other random and sundry items, the TV is off, my oldest daughter's telescope is pointed out the window towards the neighbor's yard, on top of the DVD player is a stack of DVD's, including boxed sets of the first four seasons of 'Alias,' and both seasons of 'Torchwood,' and about a dozen random VHS cassettes, but anyway, I just looked up at the clock and realized why I am so tired, cause it's nearly 2:30 AM, and I have to help with my lovely daughter's sixth birthday party tomorrow, her second party in a week, though this one is for just wee tykes her age from her school, to be held at Como Zoo, and I think I should finish and post this, and wish you who read this a fine g'night!

Life Is A Fragile Thing

This story first made me shudder, and then made me tear up:

From CNN:

(CNN) -- The fiance of a top Brazilian model -- whose hands and feet were amputated in a bid to save her from a deadly and little-known illness -- said he believes she will wake up from a coma, noting, "where there is a heartbeat, there is hope."

Brazilian model Mariana Bridi is in a serious condition in hospital after undergoing multiple amputations

Brazilian model Mariana Bridi is in a serious condition after undergoing multiple amputations.

Mariana Bridi da Costa, 20, was in "very critical condition" on Friday, doctors said, as she fought a pernicious disease that has ravaged her body and forced doctors to perform the amputations and extract part of her stomach as well as both kidneys.

She was breathing through a respirator, officials at Dorio Silva Hospital in the Brazilian state of Espirito Santo said Friday.

"Where there is a heartbeat, there is hope," her fiance, Thiago Simoes, told CNN in a telephone interview.

Da Costa suffered from necrosis, or the fast deadening of tissue, caused by septicemia.

Septicemia, triggered by a bacterial infection, causes insufficient blood flow that can lead to organ failure.

Bridi first sought medical advice after feeling ill in late December. Hospital officials said she was transferred to Dorio Silva on January 3 in "septic shock," a serious medical condition caused by an inflammation.

Bridi was first diagnosed as suffering a urinary tract infection. By the time the infection was detected, it had developed into septicemia.

Doctors decided to amputate first her hands and then her feet after the condition reduced the amount of oxygen being delivered to her limbs.

Read the rest here.

Followup: Bridi passed away today, more here.

Friday Night Videos - January 23, 2009

'Mad World'
Gary Jules


'Skinny Love'
Bon Iver


'River On Fire'
Adam Again


Thursday, January 01, 2009

Free Music At

Badman Records, home of the likes of 'The Innocence Mission,' and 'My Morning Jacket,' has released a compilation of the best of the last ten years of their label, and it's available as a free download at Badman - Has It Really Been Ten Years?. Give a listen.

Track Listing:

1. Dynamite Walls (From "Skyscraper National Park") - Hayden
2. Brotherhood of Man (From "We Walked in Song") - Innocence Mission
3. Find Me, Ruben Olivares (From "Rock 'N' Roll Singer") - Mark Kozelek
4. Sick as a Gun (From "La Lamentor") - Weinland
5. Hollow Heart (From "Chemical Friends") - N. Lannon
6. B Minor (From "Elm Street") lanterna7. I Am History (From "Make Some Quiet") - Bell
8. Sooner (From "Chocolate and Ice")- My Morning Jacket
9. German Love (From "Starfucker") - Starfucker
10. A Little While (Exclusive! from Upcoming Album Happiness Is Easy) - Misc.
11. Come Down Slowly (From "Prospect Park") - James William Hindle
12. Hardcore Romantics (From "Mr. Serious") - Mark Mallman

Enjoy. And oh yeah: Happy New Year!